Soooo…

Well, there is no way I will lose 35×35, because I haven’t done ANYTHING since I started this thing. But, I started out right again today.

My brother paid for a year membership @ the gym for me. Nothing like a little guilt to help me feel more motivated!

So I went today– I am going to be so SORE! My legs are all weak right now when I first take a step and each time I sit they feel like they are going to give out on me. I can’t imagine what they are going to be like tomorrow. I had a free session with a trainer & he kicked my butt. I want to try to see how I can swing seeing a trainer regularly, because that will definitely help with my motivation and progress.

So, I’m back & doing it for real this time. Let’s see if I can at least be taking the right steps towards healthy by my 35th birthday– in 6 weeks. That will be my new 35 x 35 goal.

The numbers:

    weight= 264

    BMI= 40.8

    body fat= 45%

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Food Issues

Grrr… already feeling frustrated by my 35 x 35, and it’s only the second day!

Why do I eat (or OVER-eat)?

Feeling: Bored. Stressed. Tired. Anxious. Depressed.

Times: Late-night. Alone. Driving. Running errands.

Foods: Sweets. Salty. Fattening

I’ve got to do better. Today wasn’t HORRIBLE, but it wasn’t great. Everything was fine until we went to pizza with my parents. RANCH DRESSING. GARLIC CHEESE BREAD (the best around!!). PIZZA. So if that wasn’t bad enough, then I drive to my photo class and had Twizzlers (in my car) & cookies (bought after I HAD to stop because of a bathroom EMERGENCY.

Feeling very discouraged right now. Today would have been a great day but for after 5pm.

All I can do now is do better tomorrow!

Next step: add in exercise (when this DAMN rain stops!)

35 x 35

On April 11 I will be 35 years old. My birthday present to myself is to lose 35lbs by my 35th birthday.

I’ve struggled with my weight my entire adult life. I’ve never been successful in losing any significant amount for any extended time.

I realized that if I live to be 70, my 35th birthday will mark half of my life. <shudder> I don’t want to live the 2nd half of my life like the past 16 of my adult-years.

What better way is there to signify that I am important to me than by giving myself the birthday present of losing 35lbs?

What better way is there to show that I am on the path to health, both mentally and physically, than commiting to losing 35lbs?

What better way is there to improve my self-esteem than to achieve a goal that I had given up on because I stopped loving myself years ago?

What better way is there to jump start my actual goal of losing 100+ lbs than to lose the first 35 by my 35th birthday?

I can’t think of any better way.

Here goes…….